69_my_valentine

man, i dunno what life has in store for me, but right now, life sucks. 'Tis true. The only few things i have to look forward to is that wednesday is the taste of chaos. Saturday is the band recording our demo in Berwyn. Next saturday (march 19th) is the mojoes show. Yes. The rumors are true. Im now singing for the band and jon is playing bass. I got fucking grounded last monday . Looooong fucking story, but the ending goes like this: my mom threatened to call the police on me. Yeh, so im grounded for a month, and im not supopsed to go to either of the three things that im really looking forward to, but, of course im going to anyway, cause im a rebel!!!Yess!! Ummm....not really much to say. I want a girlfriend very bad. Get to the mojoes show early cause there will be an assload of people there. Girls girls girls. All i can ever think of. Im taking hard ass classes next year. Go me. More updates to come.
~~~Jack~~~

Everyone is going to hate me for this, but its for real this time. Jake, I know youre going to say "I told you so". And Brian and Becca are going to be happy to know that "Bangs" and I are through. We, both of us, decided that we should be just friends. Im kinda glad with this decision, but I know that I just lost my first true love. And, to my best friend Adam, dude, I love you. You put this all in perspective for me. I'm going to get through this. Well, both Kari and myself, will. And even though it'll be very hard, I will get over her. Kari said herself that I deserve someone better. She's right. I do. I'm too nice to her, she said. Even though thats the weirdest thing Ive ever heard of. I'm a very affectionate guy. I need a girl I can cuddle with, a girl that I can share my feelings with, a girl I can kiss and tell her that I love her. This is an open invitation for any girl who thinks they are that her. Im being serious. I hate being alone, and I hate crying over losing the best thing that ever happened to me. Yeh, thats fucking right. I cried. I cried as soon as I hung up the phone with her. And Im sure that Im going to cry some more. Everyone is going to be angry with me, and I'm going to let them. I just hope that Kari and myself can go back to normal, but, I know deep down inside that it will never be normal again between us. I have to stop writing cause I'm beginning to cry here. What I need right now is for my friends to be here for me, and I need an amazing girl to love me. Please comment. I need some reassurance.

...but this time it will be different. I spilled my guts to her on the phone last night; I told her how i felt about everything. You and Jess are probably going to be pissed at me, but dont be. This is the best thing thats happened to me in a long time. Just wait, Jake, you'll see....

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So this saturday was adams super-duper cool 16th birthday party. It was the most fun ive had since new years; it was filled with emotion, laughter, fun, drinking, smoking, polish potheads, and kick-ass Senses Fail covers by none other than yours truly. Wow...words can't describe that party. Oh man, probably the funniest thing that happened(sorry jake) was when jake tried to do a handstand on a folding chair and he flat out fell face first and cut his eyebrow open. I didnt actually see it happen cause the band and I were about to start playing. Great nonetheless. I hope youre ok by the way, jake. I didnt talk to you today and im pretty sure youll be reading this. Man, you should've went to the hospital. Oh man..the weirdest thing, and now, as of today, the best thing thats happened to me, is that right after i finished singing "187", kari, my ex, said she had to talk to me, and automatically i knew it was about "us". And it was. She said she was confused and didnt know what to do about it. She meant that she wanted to go out with me again, and I was really hesitant cause jake said i should give up on her and, actually, everyones been telling me that, but i really was trying, until she said that and i just about collapsed. It was awesome, yet i was sooooo happy. Jake, if youre reading this, by this point youre probably thinking im an idiot. I know you are, but keep reading. OK, so I said yes, then we kissed, and she had to leave cause her ride got there. Today i was supposed to go and see her, but i didnt get home from adam's till 'bout 4, and she wasnt home. She called me at like 8, and we talked for two amazing hours. OMG, it was the best conversation i have ever had with her. We talked about everything that we've never talked about before. We talked about sex, marriage, death, our parents, past boyfriends/girlfriends, sexual desires(lol), etc., etc. It was amazing. We've totally evolved as a couple. The best thing she said to me was that she could totally she us geting married. Im gonna have a great nights sleep tonight, and hopefully band practice tomorrow and more of kari....
More updates to come!!
~~~~~Jack~~~~~

check out my bad ass icon thanks to adam!!! buddy fucking nielsen!!! whoo!! i will most definitely be updating more later cause i have to tell everyone about adams badass party and this weekends events...

laters everyone

hey, anyone who wants to help me put an icon next to my LJ name, drop me a line and help a brother out...

wow, for once in a while, im happy. I just got back from a very productive band practice. It really wasnt a band practice, it was a guitarist practice, cause we practiced in ed's basment with limited space. Friday is our real practice, and saturday at adam's party, we might play a few songs, and i might sing "187" by the one and only senses fail, but only if im drunk ;)...Ummm, yeh, the band finally has three songs completed and were happy about that. We're gonna record our demo at the end of the month, and we'll be handing those out at the show on the 19th of march. They might be free, they might be 2 bucks, idk yet, but the songs that will be on the demo are "This Is The Year That Depression Becomes A Fashion" and "The Formal Weather Pattern For New York". Oh yehh, congratulations to The Valentines Day Massacre on picking up a new second guitarist, Jake Gigler. Speaking of the show, this will hopefully be the final lineup: Eleanor's Fault, Up In Ashes, Red Blood Tears Love and another band whose name i cant remember at the moment. Ok, enough for now...
Love you all...
~~~~Jack~~~~
P.S. comment all you motherfuckers!!!!!

don't forget to comment for fuck's sake.........

OK OK OK...sooooo...havent updated since my drunken buffoonery on new years, but lots of stuff has happened. I havent felt up to updating this bitch, but i do now, so here goes. Umm, well,the best news is my band s playing a show at Mojoe's Cafe on March 19th, so if youre interested, come see us kick ass. Well, this weekend was kinda cool. Friday,I was supposed to have band practice, but i couldnt get a ride, so that was a no-go. Saturday we were, again, supposed to have practice, but we couldn't all get together, and I was changing the kitchen faucet anyways till like four. I had to run to Home Depot and then Menards, and then HomeDepot again, but I got it finished anyway. While i was gone Jake called, and uh, i ended up going out with him, jessi, kari, shauna, and her boyfriend kurt. We went to Jedi's Garden and ate. Therewas seriously nothing to do after that. I was hoping me and kari could get back together, even if just for that one night, but, once again, my hopes and dreams were crushed when she said something that really really reallly pissed me off, and I couldnt even look at her after that. Oh man, i was pissed...jake said since there was nothing to do, we should just "do each other", and kari said "oh sure, but jack would be too scared." I was honestly about to fucking cry...i wanted to get out of the car and walk home, but i just fucking ignored her. After like five muntes of silence between us, she tunred to me and said "are you really pissed at me?" and i just turned to her and gave her a stare. OMG, i wanted to die. She has no idea about the way i feel for her...no idea at all. I should be over her, but, its just like she's got a hold on me and i cant get away from her no matter what...Weve gone out like six times...ughhh, im done here for now...im too aggravated. Heres my favorite Underoath song....

Some Will Seek Forgiveness, Others Escape

I heard a voice through the dischord
Of a deluge of passers-by.
I saw one gaze frozen in time
Watching me passing by.
I swear I'll know your face in the crowd,
And I'll hear your voice so loud
When you're whispering...

Hey unfaithful I will teach you
To be stronger, to be stronger.
Hey ungraceful I will teach you
To forgive one another.

Here's my kiss to betray
Desperate to brush the lips of grace.
Do you feel hollow when you think of how I've lied?

Oh sweet angel of mercy with your grace like the morning
Wrap your loving arms around me.
Oh sweet angel of mercy with your grace like the morning
Wrap your loving arms around me.

Hey unfaithful I will teach you
To be stronger, to be stronger.
Hey ungraceful I will teach you
To forgive one another.
Hey unfaithful I will teach you
To be stronger, to be stronger.

Hey unloving

I will love you
I will love you
I will love you.

Jesus I'm ready to come home.
~~~~Jack~~~~

hey this is adam updating for jack
its new years so I guess I have to wish whoever reads this a happy new year!!
I came over to Jack's at about 8 pm and Jessie, Kari, and Jake were over.
We hung out inside Jake's van and just talked.
Jack and Kari seem right for each other.
aww its so cute.
Anyways, we then set off some fireworks after they all left.
Than started drinking wine which lead to us drinking more
hhaha

i am only doing this because he never updates
the schmuck :-p HAHA
anyways, that was our night.
we're both drunk

we love christine, katy, and mya with a passion

later. and effing comment

Whoooooooooa........been a while. Yeh, ive been grounded and my brother got us al kicked off aol cause he gave out his address on a chat room. What a retard. Anyway, i had a fun time at the MCR/TBS/USED show and a great time was had by all....lol. If you wanna see the pics i put up from the show, go to my photobucket site here: http://photobucket.com/albums/v518/Xgive_em_hell_kidX/
Copy/Paste.....you know the drill.

So.....another wasted day. I really hate sundays. Its the worst day of the week for me because it signals the end of the weekend and the beginning of the school week. Anyways, i did absolutely nothing today. I sat around playing "Max Payne 2" and watching "Spaceballs". Then at like 4:30, i got around to taking a shower. This weekend was crap. I got nothing done at all. I wish i had a car. Damn, id never be bored. Right now, im doing my biology homework. I have a huge report due in two weeks and im screwed if i dont get it done. At least i talked to harisa last night. Man, i love her. I cant wait till im 18. In getting the fuck outta here and going to live with her. Ahhh!!! Almost forgot!!! My Chemical Romance show on december 3rd!!! I cant wait. Now i have something to lok forward to. Well, time to go back to my homework. I'll write some more when something comes up. Leave some comments.

Wow, i have got to stop this. I cant get into a habit of writing in here. But anyways, lots of stuff has happened. About a week ago, maybe longer, i dont wanna remember. Becca and I had a big fight. We basically stopped talking to each other. It wasnt something I was particularly proud of. Becca's amazing, and the only thing we fought about is the fact that i dont call her, and i ignore her. well, i really did, to be honest, but i had a reason. I was in love with becca. I wanted to go out with her soooo bad, but she didnt want to go out cause i live far away. Long story short, we hated each other. But this change last night. I IMed her and we made up. Im happy 'bout that. But, this week was pretty bitchin'. I had a bowling meet wednesday, and we won. No surprise there. Ummm, friday i went to the north side with jake, jessie, christie, and kari. I didnt have too much fun cause all we did was go to pick up jakes car, but the bodyshop was closed. so we ended up going to his dads restaurant and got some free mexican food(yay!!). Then we drove to kari's house and chilled out there, then i went home and got grounded cause i was five fucking minutes late. That shit is always happening to me. Oh well. Today was bullshit, too. I had to go over to my godmother's house to fix her sink, and i was supposed to lay tile in her bathroom, but low and behold, it never happened. My mom took us out to dinner then she didnt want to drive me back there, so i went shopping with them. Now i have to spend tomorrow doing that shit. Ohh well. I guess this is enough. Later everyone.
~~~~~p.s. If you read this, leave a comment!!
~~~~Jack~~~~

upon further review of adams livejournal, I NEED TO FUCKING CASTRATE THAT POLOCK!!!!!kari doesnt like you, buddy. and its KARI!!!!! Not GHADI, or GOTTI. I didnt stick becca up. I never got her messages cause my phone is shit. I was already out, anyway. Fuck, people suck.

So, first piece of business. NOBODY EVER FUCKING LEAVES COMMENTS ON MY GODDAMN LIVEJOURNAL!!!! OK, with that off my chest, anyone that read my livejournal from now on, PLEASE leave a comment. If you do, ill suck your dick. Hah, you wish. So, about two weeks ago, i broke up with kari, my girlfriend. I had a reason to break up with her, because we had really nothing in common. Theres was no spice, ya know? I love her a lot. I still do. But theres becca. I wanted becca soooo bad. That was my other reason for breaking up with kari. But becca told me that it wouldnt work when i asked her if we could go out. I was fucked. Im still fucked. I want kari back. My best friend jeesie told me that kari still likes me, but i dunno, its really fucked up right now. I want kari, but its gonna be hard to tell kari i want her again. Im gonna go figure this one out.....


~~~SKATE~~~FIGHT~~~FUCK~~~

One last piece of business to attend to. Im currently single, so, yeh, have fun. I just thought i should add that in...

Okay, so its been like a year since ive been here, and alot of stuff has gone on, so im gonna try and start with the most recent thing i can remember. All this shit has to do with my friends and i. SOooo, okay, my problems first started on the friday before the Nintendo Fusion Tour(by the way, i met gerard way of my chemical romance. IN YOUR FACE!!!). My friend christine called me while i was at my other friend jakes house. She asked me to come over cause her confirmation party was going on. But first, a little history lesson. Since the moment i laid eyes on christine, i had a thing for her. Ive always liked her. And at the confirmation party, my other super-cool friend becca was there. She is awesome. Shes the only person, besides jake, that i can tell anything to and not be ashamed. Recently, we started liking each other, and i told her a few weeks ago, and she felt the same way. But at the party, christine and i were being a little more friendly than usual. We werent making out or anything, but we were holding hands and stuff. It was enough to piss becca of. I didnt think it did, but i found out the sunday afterwards. On sunday, becca called me at christines house. We were talking, and then, i dont remember exactly how it happened, but christine started yelling at me. She was saying that i did something wrong, and i led becca on, and at the time i had no fucking idea what she was talking about, and i hung up on her. They were text messaging me on my cell to call them, but i didnt until an hour later. I was seriously dumbfounded to hear what they were talking about. It turns out that becca was pissed at me because she saw me and christine friday, and christine was pissed at me because becca told her i was saying stuff behind her back. Long story short, i apologized to both of them and were back to normal now. Next line of business. Jake and his girlfriend jessie. Wow. Im super close to both of them, so whatever happens to one of them, affects me. They have been fighting for a while, and recently went on a "break". Everyone knows that those are bullshit. It turns out that during this break, jessie had been going out with a guy named kevin who she met at a show at the oak lawn ice arena. Jake knew who this guy was, and was very suspicious of the two of them, because jess was always hanging out with him. Anyways, both of the guys had no idea that jessie was playing both of them, and it all came out into the open this past friday. Needless to say, both guys are done with jessie. And one final thing. My best friend since freshman year, adam, recently tried to fucking commit suicide. This happened last saturday, and i had no goddamn idea till he told me online sunday. For his complete version of the story, and because im too tired to write anymore, go to his livejournal at: loveis_betrayal. Hopefully i'll get back into the habit of writing more frequently. Later everybody.
~~~SKATE~~~FIGHT~~~FUCK~~~

Wow, it has been a long ass time since i wrote in here. Well, i just got back from the most amazing night ever!!!! Tonight was the Senses Fail/The Bled/Silverstein/Emannuel show. I FUCKING MET BUDDY NIELSEN AND MIKE GLITA OF SENSES FAIL!!!!!!!!!! I also talked to Dave Miller and the lead singer from the Bled. My friend Adam scored a backstage pass from Buddy's brother Zack. Shit, this was a good night. I think Mike is soooo fucking hott!!! Im not even gonna go to sleep tonight. And Marco, if youre reading this, FUCK YOU!!!!!!! STOP MESSING WITH A CERTAIN SOMEONE, WHO I WONT MENTION!!!! You know who you are, you asshole. And, also, to all you fuckers on the CTA train that told us to "shut up", FUCK YOU TOO. Enough negativity for one night. Haha, back to my girlfriend problems, goddamn it. I wish i didnt have those. I just want a girlfriend sooooo bad. Thats my goal for this week, no, lets make it even harder, my goal for this weekend: to have a girlfriend by Monday morning......Im gonna end it at that.

Skate And Destroy.........

Well, oh well. The day after my 16th birthday. I dunno how to feel. Im glad that most of my friends remembered my birthday.I got a card from my friends Estevan and Jake that says on the front cover "whats black and blue and just had sex?" Then on the inside it says "the eight year old in my trunk!!!" Theyre awesome. They took me skating, then to Sam Ash. When i went home,i had cake, and did three hours worth the homework. I was realy depressed the day before,but, hey, whatevs. Im good now. But today, ohhh man. Most important first. I SAW A FUCKING DRAG QUEEN!!!! I went out with a bunch of friends and we went to a minigolf place that had a bunch of awesome little inflatable slides and shit, but it was closed, so we went to chuck e. cheese instead. Then we left and while on the way home at a red light, we saw this dude that looked realy odd, and someone pointed out that it was a drag queen and it really fucking was!!!!!!! My first drag queen sighting. Awesome. Thats it for today. Ohh, one last thing:TOMORROW: SEPTEMBER 11TH, 2004, MOJOES CAFE @ 15447 SOUTH 94TH AVENUE IN ORLAND PARK, ILLINOIS THE MOTHERFUCKING VALENTINES DAY MASSACRE!!!! SHOW STARTS @ 7, BE THERE EARLY. ITS 6 BUCKS. EVERYONE THAT READS THIS SHOULD GO SEE THESE GUYS ROCK OUT!!!

Thats it everyone. Have fun. Happy skating.